In this blog post, I’m laying it all out – my whirlwind of new feelings and emotions following my decision to work with a psychologist who speaks my mother tongue. This is giving me a different type of experience. Please be aware! This is the sixth post in my journey, and I invite you to read my first posts to get a complete timeline and perspective of my process.
Finding a Psychologist who Speaks my Mother Tongue
Finding a psychologist is like finding a partner – it’s about that click, that comfort. This realization motivated me to make the effort and invest the time to find the right therapist. I am now comfortable to re-start the therapy process. Please walk with me towards my first therapy session.
My therapy journey has come to an end, and I’m now entering a new chapter of self-discovery and personal growth. During this post-therapy period, I believe it’s crucial to emphasize the significance of ongoing support.
I would like to share some strategies that have helped me navigate challenges as I continue to embrace personal growth. If you haven’t read my previous editions, be sure to check them out “My journey”!
Discovering Complementary Resources
Currently, I am feeling a bit lost, but I have discovered podcasts and other tools to help me navigate this phase. One exciting aspect of this journey is exploring resources that complement my therapy. I have come across an amazing podcast called “The Self-Esteem and Confidence Mindset” which resonates with me due to the host’s personal story and insights on boosting self-esteem.
A Personal Journey Towards Healingand Trauma Therapy
Welcome to my blog series where I aim to share my path to healing and self-discovery with you. Today, I’m to explore the complexity of guilt and discuss the challenges I face when opening up to my therapist.
So, make yourself comfortable, and join me on this journey of healing. If you haven’t read my previous editions, be sure to check them out “My journey”!
Setting the Stage
Walking into my therapy session, I feel a mix of nervousness and a strange sense of familiarity. My anxiety isn’t as overpowering as it used to be, but I still have doubts. Sitting down, memories of my last session come flooding back, and I worry that sharing too much might make me feel guilty again. It’s a tough journey, but I’m filled with hope.
Approaching Therapy with an Open Mind
I have decided to keep an open mind about therapy. Doing the same things over and over won’t help me get better. The calm feeling I get from my therapist’s presence today gives me the courage to share my feelings, no matter how scary it might seem.
Acknowledging Guilt
Feeling overwhelmed and nervous is a common theme for me. Last time, I left therapy feeling a mix of nervousness and relief. Despite feeling liberated for a moment, I’m still battling a lot of guilt.
I keep wondering if I’m really ready to face my deeper emotional struggles. Thankfully, my therapist is very understanding and supportive. It’s comforting, like a warm hug, making me feel that my emotions are valid and that I’m not alone
My Catholic Upbringing
I would like to reflect a bit on my strict Catholic upbringing. Filled with obligatory Sunday Masses, nightly prayers, and intense apocalyptic discussions, it felt like an endless spiritual marathon.
The belief that disobedience to my mother’s commands would result in eternal damnation added an unimaginable pressure.
The Whip and the Confusion
The presence of my mother’s intimidating leather whip was a constant. Any “mistake” I made would bring it out of the shadows, and it was far from a mere statement piece.
Amidst the strict discipline, my mother’s love was also evident, creating a perplexing mix of affection and rejection that left me in emotional chaos.
Psychologist’s Insights: Learning and Healing
All these experiences I’ve endured have led me to build a host of coping mechanisms, constantly living in fear, seeking approval, and striving for perfectionism. Everything is interconnected. I now have a better understanding of how childhood experiences can leave deep wounds that may last a lifetime, creating patterns that are difficult to break.
Caged Emotions
Navigating therapy sessions has been a formidable challenge. While I am eager to express my thoughts, some emotions remain buried. As the psychologist says, it is a process. A process I will put in pause.
I have summarized my experience of five (Package of therapy I had for free) therapy sessions in two posts (3. Anxiety and Family Dynamics, and the current post 4.Trauma Therapy).
I feel a mixture of numbness and a whirlwind of emotions to pause my therapy sessions, but I am proud of myself for taking the step to seek therapy. I know my journey isn’t over yet.
The psychologist has recommended finding a therapist who speaks my mother tongue so I can access those buried emotions more effectively. That’s something I want to do later on.
Conclusion
Therapy, empathy, and the bravery to confront our deepest emotions are essential for growth and healing—I now understand that more clearly than ever.
Stay tuned for the next installment of my series, where I’ll share insights from my post-therapy reflections. I am both nervous and excited to see what comes next.
PS. For more details – An empowering platform that offers a wealth of information on mental health topics is Psychology Today , where you can find articles, blogs, and therapist directories that may assist you in your journey towards healing and self-discovery.
Unraveling the Complexities of Anxiety and Family Dynamics in Therapy
Welcome to my blog series. This post marks the third installment in my self-growth journey. If you haven’t read the first post on Mental Health Stigma, I recommend starting there to gain a complete understanding of the story. Don’t miss out on the beginning!.
I am preparing for my therapy session and I must admit, I am experiencing a mix of emotions at the moment. It’s like a rollercoaster in my mind – disbelief, nervousness, but also a glimmer of determination pushing me forward.
Step by step, I make my way to the psychologist’s office, my legs trembling and my palms getting slightly sweaty. But as soon as I enter, I am greeted by a calm and confident professional who instantly eases the tension in my body. It’s like a breath of fresh air.
Embarking on a Personal Journey of Growth and the discovering of the Ideal Psychologist
Welcome to my series of blogs. This is my second post in the self-growth story. If you haven’t read my first post on Mental Health Stigma, I invite you to do so. Don’t miss out on the beginning of this story. Okay, let’s begin.
Introduction
In this part of my journey, I am actively seeking people to whom I can relate, hoping that by connecting with others, I will gain a deeper understanding of myself. But, It’s been quite challenging.
